mask

i'm tired of putting on a show...

please stop telling me what i should and shouldnt do, think and feel...

so.. to be continued :)

i will miss

since my jogging buddy already left, i went for a jog alone yesterday.

sayu sangat rasa nak tinggalkan kolej nie. suka sangat jogging scenery kat sini....

after jogging, i love to just lie down on the grass... and look up the sky... u wanna see the view that i enjoyed?

it's just so calming... i wish i can just stay there as long as i wish until i get bored of the view, but i have dinner to go to..

this is the view of the cricket field..

so.. to be continued :)

i will miss

this is my last week here. starting next friday, i'll leave this college for good.

jujur, sangat sayu rasa bila fikir nak tinggalkan ktj. i like it here. i like my life here...

at cricket field where i always jog

the elegant uniform

so.. to be continued :)

tv shows

MUST watch :

*Disney Channel Sonny with a Chance

*Disney Channel Waktu Rehat

enjoyable to watch :

*Phineas and Ferb

*How I Met Your Mother

*The Suite Life

fun to watch :

*NCIS

*Bones

*Criminal Mind

when i'm home, other than spend time with my family i would occupy my time with tv series as i listed above. if you have disney channel, i highly encourage you to watch sonny with a chance and waktu rehat. i can assure you lots of fun while watching the show :D

so.. to be continued :)

love

i need you by my side..

you need to do what you love for you to be happy. if to do what you love means to be at the other side of the county, then let it be..

your happiness is everything to me.

so.. to be continued :)

love

i'm still getting use to people call you doctor...

even i prefer they call you by your name...

so.. to be continued :)

exam

so today is wednesday. all my cie papers are this week. kind of stress up... a bit.

since the beginning, i thought my papers would be on tuesday, wednesday(today) and this coming friday. so, i kind of have some plan how to study. like focus on accounting paper 4 last night cause i thought the paper is today... then i would have one whole day for econs paper 3 tomorrow..

so, usually i wont wake up early and go for breakfast unless if i have paper early in the morning... since i thought i have paper today, i had my shower berfore subuh... i went for breakfast.. and so tense that i dont understand how the marking scheme in OctNov10 get the figure of average investment...

while searching for the answer, mira asked me...

"fiqah, paper pukul berape hari nie?"

then i said, "kul 9.. jap lagi jeeee... heeeeeee, takuttttt"

mira macam pelik dan kata, "eyh, alyaa kata tak de paper hari nie"

"oh, ye ke?" saya pun nak cari alyaa nak bagi tau dia kita ada paper hari nie...

tapi mira kata cuba check dulu jadual....

hehehhehehhe... heeeeeeeeh....

a'ah laaaa.. paper esok.... dan seterusnye, teruslah buka facebook sebab semalam tak bukak langsung... dan setelah itu, mencari gambar2 lee min ho :D serious ah dia nie HOOOOOTTTTTTT teramat sangat :D dan seterusnye, tersenyum seorangan melihat gamba lee min ho :)

sekian, terima kasih :D

so.. to be continued :)

[8:9] "Thus, when you implored your Lord to come to the rescue, He responded to you: "I am supporting you with one thousand angels in succession."

so.. to be continued :)

love

you are my world, you are everything to me...

there's nothing in this world i wouldnt do for you.

so.. to be continued :)

hidup

i always relate to what my mum used to tell me in every situation.

dulu, mama pernah kata. patut ke kita tak suka seseorang itu cuma sebab perbuatan dia yang sikit tu? contohnye, dalam masa 24 jam sehari, mungkin cuma 10 minit je dia sakit kan hati kita. dia buat perkara yang kita tak suka. and most of the time, she/he being nice to us.

wajar ke kita tak suka dia kalau macam tu?

from what i can see, every friendship must face ups and downs. mesti lalui keadaan terasa dan sakit hati sebelum boleh betul2 jadi kawan.

first phase:

both of you will be very close, because both of you will try to please each other.

second phase:

you guys are getting closer. more comfortable with each other. you tend to be yourself, where the most common statement come in play. "nobody is perfect". you show all your flaws.

third phase:

you will have a quarrel, about how difficult it is to accept your friend's attitude, habit or even physical appearance. this is the hardest part.

forth phase:

if you manage to go through phase 3, you guys will be good friends. if not, then both of you will go separate ways and maybe only say hye through facebook.

i've faced many relationships that manage to reach third phase and not further. maybe because i have flaws that's difficult to tolerate? maybe.

so, today in accounting class i told my teacher about a friend of mine. she's very nice to me and i dont really have anything against her. but somehow, lots of people dont like her.

i asked one of my friend, why? she said that some of her attitudes are unacceptable. i tried to describe about this particular friend of mine to my teacher and somehow, it sounds so wrong. i said to my teacher : "you can see that she'll be alone because no one want to talk or walk with her". i was describing her because that's what others do to her. people try to run away from her.

the way i said it like, i'm the one who treat her like that. actually i dont. she is extremely nice to me. and i always sit with her in math class. i never mean to say bad things about her, but i did. i just told my teacher about what i heard about her. but it sounds like that's what i think about her.

arrggghhhhh... nape lately nie afiqah macam sangat jahat? tak habis2 buat orang sakit hati. cuba kalau dia dengar, mesti dia sangat sedih. she trusted me.

sorry for the emo post. i know this past few days i've been posting emotional posts. i so dont like myself right now.

so.. to be continued :)